Liberty is being free from the things we don't like in order to be slaves of the things we do like.--Ernest Benn

Thursday, September 23, 2010

The Last Beer Can?

End of the twilight racing for The Good Guys for this year. A Lamentable season for several reasons:
  • Quirky weather. Foggy drifters. I should be able to deal with this. A good racer should be able to compete in a wide variety of conditions. 
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  • Quirky Crew: People go on vacations. (Go figure!) People buy their own boats. (There's lesson in that! Several lessons!) Replacement crew is irregular. You try to retain the trainable; jettison the other. Regardless, crew chemistry oscillates. Will the return of the hard-core in a week improve things? Maybe, unless even they return resolved to buy their own boat.
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  • Same Ol' Boat: As I have said, many times, your dependable,retainable crew is part of your boat's equity. I have just not been getting much R.O.I. recently. And this big boat is not teaching me much anymore. 
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  • Getting older (me): Maybe that goes to not learning anything. Maybe that goes to my diminished capacity to process a wide variety of inputs: changes in wind, currents, water, boats. Maybe it goes to a lowered level of expectations. As I began the 2nd leg yesterday, I heard my inner self ask me, "What the hell's point?" My inner self answered, "FIIK!"
What now? 

Every end is a beginning.

Maybe the old crew can be restored and we resume our Sunday voyages of lowered expectations? Maybe I will sense that I can no longer competitively and safely sail a boat this large? Any size? Maybe I will myself to become boatless, because I can't afford a suitable boat? 


If that happens will I console myself by acknowledging that my circumstances are now identical with 99% of humanity?

That's the only consolation imaginable.

5 comments:

  1. You try to retain the trainable; jettison the other.

    I hope you took pictures of them walking the plank.

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  2. The only way out is to lose your job. Then you won't be able to afford your current bucket or its passengers.

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  3. For the moment....
    Each one is a lifetime.

    You realize this when your moments are rationed.

    Smile and get er done ;)

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  4. Save $50 from your severance check for Civilization V?

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